The name MANISH

zindagi kabhi chilchilaati dhoop hai to kabhi mehaki shaam hai zindagi kabhi shehron ki traffic jam hai to kabhi gadrayi gaon hai zindagi jine ki asha hai to maut bhi hai zindagi kabhi aansoo to kabhi hansi hai zindagi mitti me khelte bache bhi zindagi hain to madmast jawani bhi hai zindagi budhaape me, adhher me, kishore me lori me, jagjhor me hai zindagi jeet me haar me, nadiyon me bahar me sawan ke fuhaar me agar hai zindagi to tang galiyon me, khilti kaliyon me garibi me bhukhmari me bhi hai zindagi zindagi hai kheton me kaam karte kisaanon me mitti ki mehak se bharpur gaoon me naale sadak banate majdoor bhi jeetey hain garibon ki bhi hai zindagi zindagi hai un paper wala, chaay wala hotel waale "chhotu" me kisi ko sab kuchh nahi milta fir bhi hamesha jo khush rahta bas wo jeeta hai zindagi (sorry for the strange ending...my train of thoughts were broken by sudden entry of my room mate. anyways....whatever i could write before he could "break in" is there....pas...

chalte chalte achanak se ruk gaya hun main jindagi ki is daud me kuchh tham sa gaya hun main kya ho gayi aisi baat ki kuchh saham se gaya hun main sab kuchh to thik hi tha, fir kya ho gayi gadbad bhid me hotey huye bhi akela pad gaya main bina soche samjhe sabse lad gaya main kya ho gayi aisi baat ki saham sa gaya hun main race me bhaagti duniya me tham sa gaya hun main bheed bhadi duniya me akela pad gaya main sabke paas hotey huye bhi akela pad gaya main kya hui aisi gadbad, jiski mujhe na ho sake khabar bhaagti jindagi me ek thahrao sa aa gaya mann me anek vichharon ka bahao se aa gaya aasmaan me jaise kaale baadlon ki chadar si chhaa gayi main thahar gaya, bas ghadi aage badh gayi mann ashaant, sharir shithil... haay mujhko ye kya ho gaya jindgai tune mujhe apna kaun sa roop dikhla diya ki bhaagti jindagi me ek thahrao se aa gaya main thahra raha ghadi aage badh gayi mujhe pata hi na chala jamana aage badh gaya mann me tatolta hun wo karan, jisne mujhe yun bana diya apno ko begana,...

zindagi me bahut se pal aise bhi aate hain sab kuch paraya, begana sa lagta hai lagta hai ki ye zindagi bemaani hai koi matlab, ya maksad nazar nahi aata hai aise me jine ki chah jab khatam ho jaaye to Khudkhushi bhi ilaaz ban jaati hai kal tak jo isey galat bolta aaya aaj uske liye yahi sahi lagne lag jaati hai kitna kuchh badal jata hai agar kuchh bahut pyara kho jaaye zindagi bemaani, bekaar si lagne lagti hai kal tak jisey nafrat karta aaya aaj wahi Khudkhushi, khushi ban jaati hai jine ki chah jab khatam ho jaaye to zindagi tu ek dard banke rah jaati hai tujse jo kal tak pyaar kiya aaj wo tujme apna ant talashne lag jata hai tujse door hoke wo maut me apne dardon ko khatam kar dena chahta hai zindagi, tu aisi begaani ho jaati hai tu har dard, har gam ka karan ban jaati hai zindagi tujse pyaari to maut ho jaati hai zindagi tujse pyaari to Khudkhushi ho jaati hai

Suicide : Everyone knows it means killing oneself knowingly and by own desire. Why do anyone commit suicide? Is it failure in an exam? Or lost love? Or too many problems in life? Well, it all leads to just one thing...there's nothing important to live for. I would like to tell you story of a guy I knew. For simplicity purpose lets call him Ravi: Ravi was a very decent guy when he was a kid. The best kid you can imagine, awesome son. Only negative thing in him (or he thought so) was he was shy. As he grew up he tried to overcome this shortfall. This brought many evils in him. He no longer remained as good as he was when he was a kid. But still he was better than many others in his age group. He didn't let the inner voice die. He listened to it for most times. Though there were times when he would ignore the right thoughts and do as others of his age group would do. And then one fine day he met a girl...she was like no other girl he had ever met. He found ...

I followed you wherever you went. I agreed to whatever you said. dreaming.... you would realise it one day the DAY came....I asked, you agreed and I was so happy but then....as always situation changed. and I am again lonely I am unable to explain how I felt though I knew the result you had also warned me, but then...as usual I never heard. I knew I had plans...I still have them.... but not the courage to follow them I am too afraid of the future what if.....things don't go my way I will be lost...I still am in this concrete forest

life may seem tough for now but O my love, do not fear i will be always there for you, holding you in my arms, close and near. things may seem litte bad for now but then, its the way life is, you know and why don't you see dahling, they give our love an opportunity to grow come, sit beside me sweetheart forget worries, when i am with you put your head in my arms let me show how much i care for you -written on 22 Aril 2010. sitting in RSA shift in Skyhall 1. 4:54am

What would you do if your worst fear come true? You would get sad? Because your worst fear has come true. Surely it must be the worst phase of your life. Nothing ever did or would grieve more. Or you would be relieved? Saying that now that the worst fear has come true. Now that you have living the worst part of your life, future contains only good things, atleast better. A bit confusing na? But what to do....anything else happens or not, but surely a person loses his judgement, for atleast those moments. And if he starts writing something in that moment, his words would be as foolish as mine. lol I have lost what I desired for most in life. Now there is nothing more for which I would try this hard. The rest of life seems just a routine now, living like other normal people with smiling face. Its necessary dear, a smiling face, to show the world you are happy and content with your life. I promise you (I know you would one day read this idiotic post of mine) I would always tr...