The Conflict in My Life


Why this conflict keeps on happening in my life? Can’t it let me live peacefully for few years? I need peace of mind. And see what I get… lots and lots of pain. Why do U keep on traumatizing me?

Let me live peacefully Father. Let me live a life filled with satisfaction and happiness. Can’t U bear seeing me happy for little time? You know how much I respect U. I also know how much U care for me. Then why this much of pain for me?

Are you punishing me for my deeds of past? Or U wish to show how much wrong life I am living now. See, I know I have done many wrong things in life and also have continued few till now. But then who is responsible for this? Was I always the same?

I have changed and keep on changing trying hard to fit myself in this ruthless world. Still I have got few weaknesses which I try to filter out. But what exactly I can do?

You are witness to how the efforts to remove one weakness lead to injection of another in me.

Well lets forget those all things for now. Just tell me what I should in the present situation. Help me out. You know I would do whatever U would tell me to do.

My mind is in deep state of shock now. Subtle the conflict and show me the right way.

And more important thing: Stop injecting conflicts in my life. I am getting stressed.


Hey....am I right in this?

You see the more conflicts I face, the more experience I gain and the stronger person I become. So, isn’t it the same that I ask U for?

Do Man…do whatever u feel like. I have got the way.

Fight…that’s the mantra for me. I have faced many conflicts in my life and I am sure even this I would be able to handle. If not, at least I would become stronger man. I am ready now.

And yaa…thanks for Your Friend. You know how much important U are for me. I would try to follow the path show by U. I would try to be truthful to myself and thus to U.

Rest whatever I do, I know someday I would be punished by U for them.

He he he.

Chal…lets put an end to this Conflict now and show the world…na na…to U and Myself what it is to be Manish.

Yours

Manish – The Manish

Time: 10:04 PM, 12 January 2009.

:-after getting too disturbed by some incident. I detail the incident here as everything is not supposed to be told to everyone. Few things are best when not revealed.



The post was written by me on the date 12 January 2009, but I am posting it here today :)

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