Best moments of my life





"No time is better than the present time, because it’s here and we are together in it" I still remember these wonderful words you whispered in my ears as I was being carried to ICU. Trust me those words kept me alive through the numerous painful days that followed. I wanted to be with you…again, this time for ever. I had made up my mind no matter what I won’t even think of suicide. I wanted to be in your arms again. I wanted to love you. This time it would be unconditional and complete.


I wanted to relive the second life I got. I owe this life to you. I know you will say “I will kill you if you say anything about you owing me anything”. I shudder to even think what would have happened to me if I hadn’t called you before gulping all those sleeping pills. Or what if you couldn’t reach in time to save me. I do not know and surely don’t want to think about it. All I know is you loved me more than yourself.


"Hey, never lose hope" "Why fear if I am near." Trust me I am not worried of anything now and I also lost fear of being alone. I know you will always be near me, watching me, protecting me.


You know I have even started college again. I know you knew that I had lied about my degree. You knew everything, God knows how. You knew but never told a word to me. Maybe that’s why God took you. Maybe He also needed someone who could keep His secrets safe and still love Him. Maybe you didn’t commit suicide because of me; you were taken away by God. You didn’t jump in front of the train, but you....just slipped.


And truly…..These are the best moments of my life because you are with me.


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